Hopefully

I had a huge accomplishment today! I was able to pull back my hair! Alright, I had my hair black, blonde, red, and then I wanted it natural. At that point my hair was just barely long enough to pull back and then I cut it to one inch or so...just as long as Kevin's. Since then I've been tempted to dye it but I've refrained. Now, almost a year later I can pull back my hair with a rubber band, bobby pins, and a hair thingy (descriptive, I know).

To do along with my hair achievement I have a physical achievement and a Philmont update.

I've made it back to my pre holiday weight of 209lbs.! This is exciting for me cause now I'm 2 pounds away from the absolute max for Philmont. I can make it down to that without a problem but I'd like to make the 172 recommended weight. This is 37 pounds. I was truly surprised by the scale this morning cause I thought I had been slacking this week but this is good.

On the topic of Philmont, I contacted the Venturing Crew Advisor out of Missouri and I think that it's almost official that I will be returning to Philmont this summer. This means I will literally working my ass off to get in shape. Wish me luck!

Philmont

Motivation? All time low.

I hit sprees here and there where I will work out every day for a week and then BAM! suddenly it's three weeks later and I haven't lifted anything heavier than my back pack.

This is one of those weeks. Sunday I got my ass down to the White Building for a class, Power Remix I think. That was a good one. I was uncoordinated and clumsy but I managed huffing and puffing through the whole thing, feeling good by the end. Today, I was gonna try a Zumba class but my motivation was lacking something hard core. I've figured out that unless someone is going to be next to me the whole time or I'm motivating someone else it just ain't gonna happen.

But I got this text today from a girl I was in a Venturing Crew with in high school and she told me that she had a friend who needed another person to go on a trek to Philmont Scout Camp in New Mexico. I've gone before and it was fantastic. I was in shape, strong, healthy and I didn't realize it then because I was a 16 year old girl with body image issues, not that I don't have them now, but I looked sexy!

I can get back into that shape again and I know it. Here's the catch, if I don't then I'm not allowed to go on the trip. It's a safety hazard not only for me but for the rest of the crew. I need to be able to keep up with them and have a certain skill set that will be useful. 

Last week I weighed in at 213 pounds. The height to weight requirement that they hold everyone to is unisex and for a 5'7" person I'm recommended to be between 121-172 with an absolute max of 207 if a special exception is made. It's currently the end of January and the trip is in June/July with my physical due a month ago. Granted there's no confirmation that I'll be able to go on the trip yet but I'm not going to let myself know that yet. I think that if I cling to the idea that I'm going to Philmont and that I required to do this that I can get it done.

Instead of Zumba I went on a 45 minute walk run with Kevin. It was around a track and of course me being the birdbrain that I am forgot to count how many times I went around. I broke a sweat and that's good so I just need to work up to carrying 50 pounds 13 miles a day for 9 days straight...I can do this.